Creditors in my Family

i have two main creditors who have worked officially in such capacity in my family the rest have been temporary workers or pensioneers civil servants the same for most of my friends and family they call me twice a month and ask two how are you and how are you doing i get nothing else but these two they even ask me to say hello twice to gauge my temper my analyzing the difference in time and volume between the two equivalents they even never told me anything about what they did or what they were doing they just left me in limbo and let me dance with it i hope to be in a creditor capacity someday but i always get the feeling that i am dressing for a promise when i have my dialogue cut short and rearranged with pasted to match suitor at math for the going ponytank at the rodeo